Catching up

Well hello! Here I am, I haven't disappeared, I'm just wanting to catch up on my life adventures. In contrary to my previous posts, I didn't follow my own advice; I didn't really follow my heart. I tried to resign several times from work but ended up taking the opportunity. Do I regret it? No. It's taught me a lot; it's taught me that I can really live with very little which reinforced my commitment to follow a minimalist lifestyle. I've realized, at this point in my life, that the corporate world is no longer for me; it no longer serves me. I've been living overseas in a relatively poor country for over a month now and I'm really struggling to adapt. My health (mind, body and spirit) and nutrition which are both extremely important to me, have taken a beating. I believe I have more self-compassion for myself to enable me to cut loose from the corporate world once and for all. Money is a thing but not everything. I believe I've been trying to please others and not wanting to disappoint them seeing they have done so much for me.  I have been very fortunate with my bosses in the past; they have always been great and I felt so loyal to them. But at the end of the day everybody's replaceable. I'm a very loyal person and hate to disappoint people but right now my life is following the corporate structure and not bringing me any joy at all.

I've started voice recording with a friend and have found it very helpful for me. I managed to figure out how to voice type which allows me to speak more freely. I don't seem to be able to type fast enough to capture my thoughts. (If anyone has seen the Matrix, well that is basically my mind at warp speed...LOL!) I'm really wanting to share my my experience and I'm sure people will be able to relate. I have so much to say, so much to share. I will give myself grace and just start slowly but speaking out loud and talking about it is really helping me and I hope I can reach some people who are reading this. Please let me know if anyone is relating to this and maybe we can start a group chat where people can share their own events in a safe place with no judgement.  I've been speaking with a friend and journaling a lot more recently. I've been doing all the meditating and nature walks as much as I can. Due to my location, it's a little more dangerous therefore limited in where I can exercise.

I have come to a point where I am no longer able to find my 'WHY' while on this work assignment. Although, I do thank God for giving me this opportunity and teaching me so many things. It has only made me more resilient and given me the opportunity to dig deep in my heart what is is that I am truly longing for. I don't regret this at all and I'm very, very happy I tried this work assignment. I will say that I will never feel like it was a failure; unfortunate life events are never a failure but rather a learning experience.  I hope all of you know, for anyone else struggling, that I'm praying for you and I'm thinking of you. 

I'm now looking forward to heading back home. Where that will be exactly or when is still to be determined. I'm ready to move on with my life and follow my heart. This past year has been very difficult for me and I certainly was not thriving. If anything, I took a step back but step backs sometimes are what you need to let you know what you actually really do need and where you actually belong. I do still feel lost and I'm not too sure where exactly I do belong but I have faith that God will help me find my path.

I'm contemplating starting to write a book of all my life adventures and tribulations. I believe my calling is to help people who are also struggling in life, be it, physically, mentally or spiritually. Together we can overcome these obstacles that are preventing us to fully enjoy life. If you feel lost and have goals and don't know where to start, please reach out. I'm offering free coaching; I want to serve others which is God's goal for us! Assisting in making people happier and healthier is my true passion.

I want to thank you for reading and for sticking with me if you're one of those that regularly come back to read my blog.  I know I've been a hit and miss; thank you for your patience while I'm navigating my life at the moment.  REMEMBER, you are not alone and I love you all!